hey guys, thnx much for the posts. the damn hardest part is that it was possibly preventable and worst yet, if he wouldve been with me in vegas that weekend, it never wouldve happened. i know im not supposed to think about the what ifs, but its unavoidable.
anyway, healing starts as soon as the tears start. some people around here were, it seems, a bit worried about what i might do, LOL. life is waaay too precious to ever voluntarily shorten it (its never even an option)and as for moving on, you bet your ass i will, its the least i could do out of respect for him and for myself. Ive always lived life to the fullest and respect each damn day I wake up and thats what i intend to continue.