It sounds like you are falling for her...
Suggestion; do something,,,anything,,,just move on.
Now that you have ignored my advice prepare yourself for the roller coaster.... Your heading up the hill now... The view is great, life is good, she is saying she loves you, you think the same,,,life is just peachey and your hands are in the air. Well once you crest this hill guess what. [img]/images/graemlins/headbang.gif[/img]
Things are about to get interesting...
I will never forget once.. many moons ago. This little ho is telling me how much she loves me and all this othe bs. Throws some great love on me than says she has to go home. It was late and I asked her to stay.. It was raining heavy and said well call me when you get in so I know you made it home.. ( I am so fucking special [img]/images/graemlins/laughing.gif[/img]) 2 hours and no call. She lived about 10 minutes away so i cruize over.
Mistake. A bad one.
The good news is that I was not armed. This guy tried to get away but I just wasn't in the mood for allowing an exit. I put the fear of god into him and took out a lot of fustration on him. Afterward when talking to a buddy I realized that hey, I can't be very mad about this. i knew the girl was a stupid little Ho and I should have known that our relationship is over every time she leaves my sight. lesson learned. If it walks like a duck and quacks.....guess what... it is a duck.
It sounds like you are in too deep to stay un-attached. You should move on.